The Newlywed "15"

No idea if the newlywed "15" is something but I am making it something. So as a woman when I was preparing for our wedding I was working out like crazy to fit in my wedding dress and feel beautiful for our wedding day. I reached success when my dress fit perfectly and I was able to feel beautiful. Flash forward 5 months to being a newlywed and gaining all the weight I lost and then some. I am not ashamed of it, nor am I embarrassed by it. Here is why.

Tim didn't marry me because I lost 20 pounds for our wedding. Tim didn't marry me because I could squat 200 lbs. Tim married me for my than whats on my outside. He married me for my personality, for my love, for the way I make him feel. Sure my looks are a bonus, not going to lie he probably is enjoying my boobs being a bit bigger. 

I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I have never been small, or even medium sized for that matter. I have always been more plus size than the rest of my friends and even than the rest of my family. My wonderful sister was blessed with good genes and my mother is super athletic that she stayed thin as well. I got the wonderful end of the stick and got my grandfathers body. I have the broad shoulders, the thick thighs, and I carry some excess weight in my tummy. When I am active 5-7 days a week for months on end I can lose weight and keep it off, but the minute I stop it comes right back on and then some. 

So here I am, a newlywed, who has gained weight. I would like to find some newlyweds who haven't gained weight within their first year of marriage. This is where you become comfortable with one another. I mean HELLO they married us, they aren't going to unmarry us because we gained some weight! (At least I hope not)

Through talking with Tim I have decided something. I am comfortable with my body. I was given this body for a reason. Not meant to be a size 2, 4, 6, or even a 10. I was meant to have some love handles, to have some boobs, to you thighs that rub together. I was meant to be a plus size woman and guess what...I love it!

Im not saying I am just going to keep getting heavier, what I am saying is that I am not going to obsess over every pound I need to lose. I want to get back int he gym and lift weights because those who know me, know that I loved lifting weights and setting a new PR. Unfortunately I have made excuses for myself and I am sick and tired of doing that. I am going to stop seeing goals for me to fail at. I am just going to have a conversation with myself daily and figure out where to go from there.

If you are a married woman, did you gain weight as a newlywed?  Did your husband love you any less? Did you love yourself any less?